I am a terrible blogger… When I first started this blog I wanted to write at least once a week. That quickly turned into once every 2 weeks, then one a month, then…. 8 months! Oops, my bad…
But in all seriousness, it’s been a rough 8 months. Lots of things happened professionally and personally. Some of it I’m comfortable sharing with the great wide virtual world, others I’m not. And honestly, sometimes I didn’t know what to say or write, afraid to give voice to some of those emotions & feelings.
Work politics, health issues, family drama, ailing grandmother, attempts to help someone who doesn’t want to help himself, terrorism and deaths around the world, pain and suffering, the darkness of sin played out…. Excitement and sorrow, emotional highs and drains, anger and frustration, resign and surrender, apathy…. Too many feelings, along with emotional fatigue.
I was reading Psalm 44 today. Like the Hebrews in Exile, I ask God why and when. Why are these things happening? When will it end?
23 Awake! Why are you sleeping, O Lord?
Rouse yourself! Do not reject us forever!
24 Why do you hide your face?
Why do you forget our affliction and oppression?
25 For our soul is bowed down to the dust;
our belly clings to the ground.
26 Rise up; come to our help!
Redeem us for the sake of your steadfast love!
But I remember that God is still faithful through all of life’s darkness. He is in control and has a plan even through the “bad” things. We have to lean into Jesus day by day, moment by moment. Through the hardships is our faith purified and cleansed. God is good, all the time, whether we see it or not.